Hello, somsom! It’s a nice sunny day today as well π I try to avoid sugary drinks, but today I was craving for some reason, so I ordered a very pretty pink strawberry frappΓ©. I was worried if it might be too sweet or not, but fortunately, it’s very delicious with just the right amount of sugar, so I’m happy. π Are you starting your day with delicious food today?
This morning, I was looking in the mirror at the front of my dressing table when I noticed a sprained gray hair and was cutting it with scissors, which left me bitter. I’m always seeking beauty, but at over 30 years old, I can’t stop aging. I can see wrinkles around my eyes and feel more tired. ^_^ Young people have their own beauty. But now I am better off with the experience than I was then!
I have insisted on wearing skirts ever since I was a baby. I remember when I was a kid, I just walked around like a sunmouth, and I was fascinated by that princess, that feminine beauty, and I longed for it. I love to care and decorate myself. My dream was to be a college cover model or a beauty pageant or something like that in the TV or the movies.
I can’t live every life I’ve dreamed of doing all the tasks I’ve been doing in real life, but I thought I became a cover model for sticker photos and won a beauty pageant by myself, dressing up in pretty clothes and playing jewelry at home.
And I really admired influencers who put on makeup and appeared on the show. I hid my identity. I couldn’t reveal it because of my illness, and I hid it because of social stigma or prejudiced gaze like scarlet letters. But now I thought, do I need to hide it like this? The disease is not a defect or fault, right? I have the right to live the life I longed for. It looks normal, but I’ll give it a go.
I have dreams that I have, and I don’t know if they will come true, but if I continue to enjoy the process without being obsessed with results, I will be able to create my own path. On the other hand, I have many dreams that I have accomplished. I’m excited and excited about what kind of journey will unfold in the future. Please watch my challenge! Thank you for reading today. π